Love is here, love is now, love is pouring from His hands from the brow

enjjjjooooyyyyyy.

ahhh i feel like writing something super duper long and i just decided it'll be about you.
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you. my head pops up when i hear your name, and for the rest of the day all i can think about is you. all i can think about are scenarios about you and me watching doctor who or listening to florence and the machine or maybe both and we'd make a fort with blankets and we'd lay under christmas lights and my mind just buzzes with things like these! i actually thought i had gotten my mind off of you, i never even thought about you after the swim season, then you came to the pool and my head got all fuzzy and then you looked across the pool to where i was sitting and i didn't want to look away, i wanted to finally have some sort of interaction with you. but i noticed this wasn't interacting, this was making things awkward. you sat down on the same side of the pool as me, but the thought of going up to you and actually talking to you made me feel like riding my bike home as fast i could. i don't know why i'm so unsocial when it comes to you, i'm sure you're nice to talk to i just don't know what it is you want to talk about i guess.
sometimes i feel as though i like you so much because i've imagined this perfect little you inside my head, where all of those scenarios would feel perfect, but i don't even know if you belong to the Lord. why would i want something so badly if you weren't completely devoted to Him? it's so hard to stop thinking about you when you're around though. it's nearly impossible i think. i don't know, you make my head buzz but my face morph into this huge smile all the same. you confuse me, but i'll always adore how almost all your shirts have your last name on them.
 
looooooooooove,
suzannah
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you guys, i sound like i'm such a romantic wreck but don't worry, i'm not usually or really ever like this. i think i over-write things. (':
 
aaaaaaanyways, i'm going to a florence and the machine concert this month! and i've been watching doctor who a lot, too! anddd my dad found a sweater from my grandma in the attic and he said i could have it but it says 'baltimore orioles' on the front and i don't really know if i like that team or not but more i don't really know anything about baseball.
i'm rambling tonight.
school has been going well, i'm not doing too terrible at waking up early ;)

today, i slept.

*the title explains my thoughts about polyvore right now*
so for the past three days when i listen to pandora (and this happens one or more times) this advertisement about this college student eating dog food like three pounds of dog food and how it's okay to and then at the end of it it's like 'you might do some stupid things in college, but buying *insert naem of text books* isn't one' haha pandora makes me laugh sometimes :-)

decorateittoanextremeiswhatiddooooo
 
I'm thinking of asking my sister if she wants to go to Plato's closet and hand in some clothes. Some money couldn't hurt and I feel like I have a lot of clothes I don't wear anymore

All These Things That I've Done - The Killers
duuuude this song is great, you should go listen to it!
 
I went to the pool with my sister today, it was fun, I just wish all this gloomy/rainy weather would go away!
 
ohohoh I drank tea today. I think the suttons got me hooked or something, but I still need to get used to the powerful taste.

I really like cantaloupes, but I can't decide if I like this set or not
 
All my friends have started school today, and i, being a home schooler, don't start for a few weeks. :P WHY DON'T ALL MY FRIENDS JUST HOME SCHOOL

wowsomanysetstodayi'msorryifi'mspammingyouwithugliness

Sailboats wish that they were stars,
Floating softly in the sky
Among our dreams that pay goodbye
 
Moving through transparent space,
Drifting through the stratosphere
And onward 'till they disappear
 
These continents from overhead
Look like tiny paper shapes
Intricately set in place
 
Below the misty mountain clouds
Theres a lovely silver bay
Where sunset sailors often hideaway
 
Scuba diver in the lock,
Speedboat driver on the dock
Sailplane pilot in the blue take me up there with you
The world looks brighter from this high altitude
 
I was walking through the trees (Sailboats wish they were stars)
And I was swimming through the sea (Cause they don't know who they are)
I was falling through the air
When it hit me right there...
My eyes are tired; I don't even care
 
An airplane carried me to bed,
Where i slept above the coast
And dreamt I had become a ghost
 
I sail above the frozen peaks,
Deep in cold cathedral caves
Across the hills and far beyond the waves
 
Take the car on the lawn
Fly the jet to the sun
And bring the spacecraft
'n soon while I play chess with the moon
I feel like sleeping through this cold afternoon
 
Once in 1964 (Sailboats wish they were stars)
An actress ran on the shore (Cause they don't know who they are)
 
And though you'll never return,
I love you Audrey Hepburn
Sometimes I can see your face in the crowd
 
There are sailboats throughout this brilliant sky
But you cannot pick them out if you can't fly
I'm glad the Earth doesn't care
If I go up there
If you want to just ask me and I will take you along.
 
I was obsessed with this song for the longest time, then I took a break from it, but now I'm thinking it's coming back to me.. not that I mind though :)